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March 31, 2009 - Tuesday

So what?
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Life

So what makes a marriage fall apart?
What makes two people, who at one point, loved one another SO much, not even be able to be carry on a conversation without hostility?
Forget being in the same room together.

What makes a marriage go from good to worse?
Is it an overnight thing...or is it a gradual process?
How does one go about reversing the negative effects that have ocurred as a result of the hostility and discontentment?
Is it possible to reverse the said effects or is it just better to walk away and cut your losses? When does it become unhealthy to be together anymore?
Is it a natural progression when you aren't getting the love you've gotten used to having, to pursue it elsewhere?
Since when did crossing that line from dreaming about it to inactive pursuit and into actively pursuing it become grey, rather than black and white?
Isn't grey an excruciatingly compromising color when speaking of a marriage?
Is it just an imaginary color that should absolutely NOT exist in a marriage?
Am I wrong in thinking that it shouldn't?
So what does one do when it does?
How does one justify the color grey and all that it entails?
Forget being faithful to one another.

What can one do, at this point, to fix it?
Can one fix it?
When is a band-aid just not good enough?
How many band-aids must one exhaust before stitches are given?
Or superglue? Or a cast?
When is it salvageable?
Is it ever salvageable when it gets to the point of no return?
What IS the point of no return?
Can one take a bus to the point of no return? A train?
Forget going backward. All you can do at this point is move forward.

Move forward where?
With or without one another?
Then what?
Love someone else?
What if you're not capable of loving anyone else?
But at the same time...incapable of loving the one you're with?
Forget love. Apparently you're not cut out for it.